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I'm sorry

Just went through friend's posts. I'm sorry Matt, I'm sorry Joan.

I don't know what to say. Life just sucks sometimes--more than anything.

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Matt said…
Thanks for this. Very much.
Honma ni arigato gozaimashita.

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