Sunday, May 13, 2007

Discipline

I'm getting better--albeit slowly.

Last weekend I spent a grand total of about 8 hours playing video games--six of those late at night.

"My name is L and I am an addict."

On Saturday night I was so cross at myself about playing on Friday night that I made the bold decision to sew a dress together that I had cut out the year before. It went together well--I worked on it much of the night. It's not done because I had a brainstorm about how to make it better (a problem I fall into often).

Then, after blogging extensively on Sat. night I was so proud of myself that I said, "You can have one or two little games before you go to bed." And that's why I went to bed at three am.

I really am an addict because while I don't miss work, and I don't spend money, I do think about it when I'm not doing it and I use it as an avoidance technique for the things I need to face.

On the plus side--after weighing myself on Sunday morning I decided--this is it, this is the line in the sand. Clearly exercise alone is not going to cut it. I resolved to eat 1500 calories per day. One week later I've been quite good and I've lost 3-4 pounds. I haven't gone to bed hungry and I haven't gone without dessert, but clearly this is going to be a long haul. Hope I can stick to it.

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